This week, I read a book by Kristin Armstrong called Work in Progress. I'll post another review of the book soon, but it has gotten me thinking about my list here and what I'm trying to accomplish. This list, as the blog name suggests, is about helping me to live in such a way that I am intentional about my actions, having fun, living fully and freely, with authenticity toward myself, others, and before my God.
There was an item on my list that was put there out of obligation, guilt and duty. And while it ought to have been a relatively easy one to begin to accomplish...it wasn't. Each time I planned a way to begin this task, I found myself waffling. I couldn't make myself do it.
And then the other day it dawned on me--if I can't make myself do it, that means I don't really want to. Telling a good story is not about me telling you how I forced myself into some activity through obligation, self-abuse, or pretense. And because the item involved another person, it ultimately would have been disingenuous and dishonoring to that person had I forced myself to "check it off."
So, I have a new goal listed: to spend at least 15 minutes outdoors on most days. Aaahhh. I'm breathing easier already.