Six weeks ago tomorrow, I returned home from one of the most amazing weeks of my life with my Holy Yoga Instructor certification in hand. The week was incredible. We were in the middle-of-nowhere Arizona, in the high desert, a land that is simultaneously stark and beautiful. I was reacquainted with my love for the outdoors and spent every moment I could outside. I met fabulous women (& three men) from all over the US, Canada & Japan whose passion for Jesus was tangible. Together we shared life, laughed, and cried. And the yoga...it was excellent. I've never worked so hard physically in my life. We were taught by very talented instructors who know their yoga, but it paled in comparison to their love for the Lord and their dedication to the calling He has placed on their lives. They set the bar high for us as instructors, but were so encouraging to us about how He will use us to further the Holy Yoga mission. Seriously, one of the best weeks of my life.
So, I've needed to write this post ever since I got home. And you'd think that it would be easy and exciting to write this one. But it hasn't been easy and I keep putting it off. Why, I wonder. For one, it has been hard to write because I don't know where or when I am going to be teaching Holy Yoga. God's had me waiting. I'll be honest, that has been really hard. I watch my classmates starting their classes, and while I'm so happy for them, it's been painful to wait for my answer. But, He is good, and I am sure of my calling. It will come.
The other part that has been holding me back is that I feel like if I write this post, it is somehow admitting that my training is over. And there is part of me that really doesn't want that season to be finished. As excited I am to be heading into whatever is next, the five months of my training were simply amazing, and I am sad that time is done. I can't completely wrap my brain around what I'm feeling, I simply know that it is what it is.
And so, I'm posting. I'm a certified Holy Yoga Instructor. That's true, whether or not I am actually teaching yet. It's by His grace and goodness that I've been led on this journey and I choose to continue to follow Him as he leads me. And I know that my time of training isn't really over either. It just looks different now.